This post is about a month behind because I started it and then put it away. I struggled to share my thoughts this time.
On Tuesday night(Dec 22) which was Wednesday morning for them(Dec23) we got to WeChat live our beautiful girl in China on her birthday. We sang Happy Birthday to her and made a prayerful wish as we blew her candles out for her. We opened a few presents my mom and sister brought over and watched as Wei Wei look at the gifts we sent her in her care package. It is a struggle to communicate with her. We talk in English and then our translator in a different city of China tells the orphanage and Wei Wei what we said and the director their tries to explain it to Wei what she just heard again. It can get confusing on a 3 way video call that has 5 people talking. I know a lot is being lost but even in all the confusion just to be able to see her live makes our hearts swell. One moment it is joy and happiness because we are able to see and talk to her and then there are moments of sadness. Seeing her confusion and the frustration of trying to understand what is going on. Watching us show her items that we say are hers’ while she is wondering and asking us why we have not come and when will we come get her tares at our hearts. The teachers at her orphanage has told Mrs Z to not let her video chat very often any more. They are not trying to hurt us or her but because they think it is effecting her in a negative way. They say she has not been her happy self lately. How do we react to this? The last thing we want is to cause our daughter more pain and sorry. Mrs. Z at the orphanage wants us to continue with the communication. She tells us she believes building the relationship ahead of time is a positive and will talk with the teachers about it. I see both sides of it and to tell you the truth I don’t know which is better. Seeing her stare at items and at us makes me wonder what she is thinking behind her big brown eyes. She calls us mama and baba, which is mommy and daddy, I know what that means to us but what does it mean to her? Even simple things can seem complicated at times.
We continue to wait on final approval and travel to open back up in China. We don’t expect to hear anything until after the Chinese New Year, which starts on February 12th and is usually about a week long celebration and holiday. If you don’t mind pray for Wei Wei. Pray for understanding, comfort and especially hope. Thanks in advance for the prays and to all my friends and family who continue to support us in this journey. Always feel free to ask us any questions you have. We love to talk about what God has done and is doing in our lives.
Below are a few pictures from Wei Wei’s birthday.
